segunda-feira, 30 de julho de 2012

sussuro


o cd da billie holiday ta rolando bem alto logo ali no som do quarto e eu to bem aqui na minha cozinha americana (adoro essa idéia de cozinha americana, por sinal, quem inventou isso é um gênio) abrindo mais um vinho tinto pra nós dois. dessa vez, ele é suave - o anterior era seco, conforme combinamos, já que você é mais fã desses, enquanto eu prefiro aqueles. assim, resolvemos sempre revezar.
minha fala já ta tardando um pouco, estou emitindo os sons mais lentamento do que penso fazer em minha mente e acho graça disso, acho gostoso ver as minhas idéias começarem a se embaralhar em em.. agora mesmo ri de alguma coisa que você disse e me esqueci de uma outra que eu tava louca pra te dizer, droga. te digo isso e você me dá um risinho gostoso, me puxa pra você, me envolve em seus braços e diz bem baixinho no meu ouvido direito: "sem problemas, você me diz quando lembrar".
e, lá no som, começa a tocar blue moon - perigosa..
nossos olhares se encontram; no ar, faz aquele silêncio apesar da música em bom som e eu desvio o meu meio tímida e tomo um gole grande do vinho sem nem pensar.
você levanta do banco e me envolve de novo com seus braços, dessa vez arriscando um passinho pra lá e outro pra cá. eu trato de aceitar o convite da dança, ainda segurando a taça, e deito minha cabeça no seu ombro, me encaixando gostoso e sorrindo toda por dentro..
eis que você, de repente, me surpreende acompanhando a musa na canção:
  
"...and then there suddenly appeared before me
the only one my arms will ever hold
i heard somebody whisper, "please adore me"
and when i looked, the moon had turned to gold..."
e aí eu te olho sapeca de baixo - pela diferença de altura - e a gente se beija, meio caindo e meio se jogando no chão, e rindo, como sempre.
então, seu braço direito foi deixando de me envolver pra que sua mão pudesse se concentrar em ir subindo o meu vestido preto e baixando a minha meia calça de pois.
e eu, derrubei no chão a taça com o vinho que tanto adoro e nem liguei.

4 comentários:

  1. Loved it... :-)
    You should try one day writing something longer, not necessairly a novel (not yet, one day), but a short story...:-)
    This is kind of connected to the last poem, the same fantasy/dream. Like the poem it is sweet and sexy. Also it reads like a poem, I know it is more of a conto, but it is very poetical.
    Later I will write something longer!!

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  2. Hey my friend,
    I have re-read the conto-poema (for that is what it really is). I really like it. You seem to be entering a new phase, a fantasy phase (kind of Anais Nin as well :-). It is a little different from before, but more daring in a way. Talking about your feelings, about your emotional encontros e desencontros (I hope the Portuguese is correct, I am very tired), is brave, but talking about fantasies is even more daring and needs more courage - at least in my opinion ha hahah. These reveal things about you, probably more than you think.. if I was a Freudian therapist (or other sort) I could probably come up with lots of theories (most of which would probably be wrong ha hahah). But I have to admit, I am really liking them. I like reading them, they kind of carry me away. You have an ability to involve readers, to make them feel part of your poem/story (and now fantasy). I feel as if I am there, or part of what is happening. You also ahve an ability to write soemthing that is sweet, romantic, and sexy/erotic at the same time. That is not easy to do...
    I also like them for another reason, cause I can find out more about you, and find out more about you, about things that matter to you..., some intimate, personal things, but also things like Blue Moon. I like the song (but didnt know Billie Holiday sang it. Tomorrow I will put on your FB a different version of it.. one I love, not least cause of the woman singing it... :-)
    I am now really looking forward to your next poem/poem-conto!!
    Keep writing, keep nurturing your amazing talent :-)

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  3. Boa tarde amiga!
    I know you have no time to write new stuff at the moment... hopefully though you will find some soon!! :-) I am really busy at the moment, too busy. But now I am taking a break, distracting myself.. I wanted to tell you something. I have said several times (and I hope you beleive me) that there is a musicality in your poems, and that I would love to see one set to music. Two nights or so ago, I was listening to an artist I have discovered recently. Her name is Lykke Li. Her music is intersting, she is different. In a way her music reminded me of your poetry - not as much as Leonard Cohen, but there is soemthing about her lyrics and way of facing the world that reminded me of you. Then I decided to look on Yout Tube and I found this video ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xu-b3u5jDiU&feature=related) its called sadness is a blessing. It really reminded me of you, not just the music, but the actual video, the story portraryed reminded me of things we have talked about - of fighting against the normal, being different, interfernce of people, etc. I will put in on FB for you later. Have a listen when you can. I hope you like it. I have to admit I am biased here, he voice is really sexy (that is the wrong word, but it is amazing..) She also looks like you!! :-)
    Enjoy

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  4. Olá amiga,
    I told you I would leave some comments, so far I haven´t had much time... but I have been reading your stuff, old and newer. The first thing I have to say is that I miss your poetry, it´s been too long since you wrote!!! (sometimes I must sound like one of those mad fans ha haha)
    Anyway, back to what i want to say.. I think of this poem and desparafusada as being linked.. I thought so the first time I read then, and after recent conversation, I am more convinced they are linked :-)
    I really like both poems (or maybe part 1 and part 2, they are somehow the same). Leaving aside the 'source material' I really like the style. Your poetry has always been brave, open, confessional, but in these two you go a step further, you open, unveil yourself more. In addition to being able to see inside your mind, here I can feel your heart, your passion, your feelings, your confusions. As I ahve told you several times I admire this, I admire you courage - and other things. These poems have increased my admiration for your poetry. It is also compelling. Over these years of our friendship (or our friendships, our real one and our poetical one :-)), we have become closer and closer, following each oher through many ups and downs (more ups, I think). In these poems (and contos) there is a definite feeling that they are the beginning of something, a new relationship, a new poetical approach, or both.. I hope so Estou torcendo, for both of you, my friend and my friend the poet!!! :-) In short, please write more like this and desaparafusada soon!!

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